Yesterday, I was having such a hard day.  The winter gloom that seems to settle in after Christmas is always so hard for me to deal with.  I felt like such a lousy mom, on top of it.

I finally hit a point low enough that I had to walk in another room.  I prayed for a moment, just begging for help.  It’s funny, in the moment, I prayed that He would help me, and in my mind I heard the reminder that our prayers are often answered by other people.

The thought made me just shake my head and cry, honestly.  I told Heavenly Father maybe I wasn’t ready for help.  I could just see someone showing up at the door with a mop.  That would have been the worst possible thing at that moment.  But in whatever form, I needed help, badly.  So I prayed for it anyway.

As soon as I left the room, I had an email from my mom.  She said she had felt like there was something I needed to hear.  My sister emailed me a song she thought I’d like.  After that, I happened to check facebook, and someone’s kid had drawn me a picture and she posted it right then.

Seriously.  I just needed to know that I wasn’t alone.  That my prayer was heard and known.

All of a sudden I was reminded that Heavenly Father knows me, He knows what I need and who I am.  He knew what I didn’t need.  Just that knowledge was enough to change everything!

I’m grateful for those who listened.

My new commitments today: listen faster, remember more.

3 Responses

  1. Jessie

    I think about you all the time, and pray for you a million times a day. I don’t call as much as I should, or email well, but I love you :) I am glad you had exactly what you needed when you needed it!

    January 3, 2013 at 11:39 pm

  2. It’s humbling to know that the people I think are the strongest need help, too. I love you!!!!!

    January 4, 2013 at 1:23 pm

  3. Debbie Domenici

    As your sisters have said, it is humbling to know that someone who I see as very strong has tough times too! I too know that I don’t keep in contact enough. We sure do love and miss you guys and wish we lived closer to be able to help out and just be there as friends!

    May 1, 2013 at 9:06 pm

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