Yesterday, I was having such a hard day. The winter gloom that seems to settle in after Christmas is always so hard for me to deal with. I felt like such a lousy mom, on top of it.
I finally hit a point low enough that I had to walk in another room. I prayed for a moment, just begging for help. It’s funny, in the moment, I prayed that He would help me, and in my mind I heard the reminder that our prayers are often answered by other people.
The thought made me just shake my head and cry, honestly. I told Heavenly Father maybe I wasn’t ready for help. I could just see someone showing up at the door with a mop. That would have been the worst possible thing at that moment. But in whatever form, I needed help, badly. So I prayed for it anyway.
As soon as I left the room, I had an email from my mom. She said she had felt like there was something I needed to hear. My sister emailed me a song she thought I’d like. After that, I happened to check facebook, and someone’s kid had drawn me a picture and she posted it right then.
Seriously. I just needed to know that I wasn’t alone. That my prayer was heard and known.
All of a sudden I was reminded that Heavenly Father knows me, He knows what I need and who I am. He knew what I didn’t need. Just that knowledge was enough to change everything!
I’m grateful for those who listened.
My new commitments today: listen faster, remember more.