Having it all

(First taste of tomato soup, 11 months.)

There are so many things going on in our lives right now.  The blog has been a bit neglected.

I’ve found this incredible life full of things that I never could have imagined only a few years ago.

I used to be disconnected.  I used to live this life pretty much for myself.  There seemed to be almost too much time on my hands.  There were days that I was so distracted, and dare I say it?  Bored.  I was happy and living a good life, but I was empty so much of the time.

(Ah, the Cheerio dumping.  A rite of passage.)

Now, everything has changed in our lives, because we chose to change it.  Now, there are never enough hours in the day.  There is so much to do.  So much possibility.  So much joy.  So much good.

I am consumed by doing it all, having it all.  But not for myself anymore.  It’s so, so different from the life I once knew.

But there is just no way to do it all.  Emotional breakdowns are fewer these days as I’ve learned to accept a simple thing.

I have to let it all go, in order to truly have it all. To have what truly matters, it’s worth letting go of everything I used to be, and every expectation I used to have for myself.  It’s worth not caring any more what others will think.  It’s worth starting over, and humbling, trusting, reaching.

Do it all.  All that matters.  The rest?  Let it go.

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