Simply Christmas

This Christmas was different than any we have ever had.

The day was different, the gifts were different.

Yesterday, I began to feel a lot of sadness where I normally feel excitement.  I felt like such a failure this year.  I wanted so much to give so much to my family, at a time when I literally have nothing left to give, physically.  I have never felt so completely drained in my life.

I felt like Christmas was slipping away from me, because I had no power to make it better.

But somehow, prayers are answered, and there is always power or help beyond our own.

I think today was like my own little Christmas miracle…which was so fitting, because it exemplified the whole reason Christ came to the earth in the first place.  To do for us what we could not do for ourselves.

It has been truly magical for me, to watch all five of my children play together the entire day.  Imaginations have soared, little songs have been hummed together, and little spats are quickly resolved today.

Love and simplicity.  That’s all I wanted for Christmas this year, and it seemed impossible.

But I got it.

Blessed am I. :)

(Now, I am 37 weeks…can we please all have a collective prayer that the days will be accomplished that I should be delivered?)

4 Responses

  1. It was a great Christmas! You’re doing wonderful darling :)

    (And yes,prayers are being said for your delivery)

    December 26, 2011 at 12:20 am

  2. What a beautiful Christmas!!! :) I wish I could have been there! :)

    As for Baby #6, in the immortal words of Capt. Jean-Luc Picard, “Make it so!”

    December 27, 2011 at 10:12 pm

  3. Yes, yes, I’m praying for you. Much love to you, friend.

    December 28, 2011 at 9:04 pm

  4. Debbie Domenici

    Looks like you did have a beautiful Christmas with your beautiful family! Your prayers have been answered now and you have another beautiful daughter. Can’t wait to meet her and her sisters. I wish we lived closer so we could spend more time together. Love and miss you!

    December 31, 2011 at 2:07 pm

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